Adventure

Briella loved adventures. I’m not sure if it was the connection between people going on the adventure or if it was the thrill of something new. She was very much an adrenaline junkie. I’m sure it was both for her.

A few weeks ago, we went on an adventure of our own. Adventures feel so much better right now if they can be predictable. We chose to head to Pawley’s Island again. We have been to Pawley’s Island once since Briella’s passing so it was one of those things that felt like it should be, “Been there, done that.” I’ve experienced the emotions of being at Pawley’s Island without Briella. Briella loved Pawley’s Island and the ocean. It surprised me when grief it so hard again this time. I was expecting it the first time we went after Briella’s passing. I’m not sure why I thought grief wouldn’t be as hard this time. There are times when I know that grief will probably hit, and I can prepare for it and there are times when grief just hits when I least expect it. This year Pawley’s Island was one of those times.

We were able to enjoy the warmth and the ocean. God gave us beautiful weather! And God met us there in the hard. Briella and what she would want to be doing was always on my mind. Watching families play with their kids at the beach was hard. Life is just hard now. We miss Briella every moment, so why I didn’t think grief would hit, I have no idea.

We were able to remember Briella in a few ways. We wrote her name in the sand at the beach and we put some of her stickers at the pier at Murrells Inlet. I would rather have her right there with us to enjoy these moments and yet it is so special to pull her in and remember her and leave her mark when we visit places.

God continues with us as we walk this journey without Briella physically by our side. Yet, she is always with us in our hearts. Keep shining Beautiful Girl!

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He makes me lie down in green pastures. He leads me beside still waters. He restores my soul. He leads me in paths of righteousness for his name’s sake. Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me. Psalm 23:1-4

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